Abortion and responsibility

[hakeema]

Assalamu alaikum. I did something terrible and I don't know what to do.

Four years ago I was doing my training in a community pharmacy (I was a pharmacy college student at the time - I have now graduated), and one day, while the responsible pharmacist was away, a woman came in and told me that her sister was considering abortion. She said her sister had gone to see a gynecologist and the doctor strongly advised her against having an abortion. However, she felt that she was entitled to make her own decision, and she was now looking for help from somebody else.
The woman specifically asked me if I knew the name of a medication that could induce labor (and thus abort the pregnancy). I do not know why, but I picked up my phone and looked up the picture of an abort-inducing medication. I showed it to her and said "This is a medicine locally available to induce abortion - but you cannot take it without a medical prescription".
She took the name of the drug, reassured me that she would take it by prescription (meaning that when I told her that this medication can only be taken if the doctor prescribes it to you, she said "Oh, sure!"), and left.

I never saw the woman again.

I feel like I did something horrible and that I killed a baby with my own hands.

Please, dear brothers and sisters, I need your help. Have I done something haraam? Will I ever be forgiven? I feel so ashamed every time I do salaah or dua'a... Why would Allah ever listen or give His blessings to a murder like me?
I should have known better. I should have turned that woman away, or lied and said I didn't know any drug for abortion. Even though I did not give her the medication or encouraged her to pursue an abortion, I still feel like I can be held responsible. I told her the name of the drug, and if she obtained it in any way and successfully aborted her sister's pregnancy, then I have actively contributed to this hideous act.

I know that maybe I'm asking the impossible, but is there any way that my act can be considered as not haraam?

I really need your help. I'm getting so frustrated and depressed it's affecting my daily life.

Thank you and jazakum Allah kahiran.

[tlihawa]

Salaam Hakeema,
Whatever you have done and if you consider it a mistake, then only Allah can forgive it. Here is one verse that might make you relieved,

3:135   And those who, if they commit immorality, or wrong themselves, they remember God and seek forgiveness for their sins. And who can forgive the sins except God? And they do not persist in what they have done while they know.

As long as you don't do it again.

Peace

[spodacus]

Salam, no you did not do anything wrong by providing information she could have looked up herself. If anything you are least showed the correct medication, she could have gotten wrong advice from someone else and taken a wrong medication. People are responsible for their own misdeeds. But the fact you are worried shows you have a good soul so continue to be worried about the afterlife and help and give sadaqah as much as you can. Most people would just shrug their shoulder and go about their day. It's good to be worried about your soul, so maybe Allah put this test in front of you to remind you about that .

[good logic]

Peace.
Carry on living the present being GOD conscious and disregard the past.
GOD is well aware that you are worried about what you have done and you may be annoyed by it.
We all struggle with daily shortcomings ,yours seem nothing , but if we believe in accountability ,we will remember GOD , repent and try to live to the standard He set for us.
Do your best each day , serve you creator by seeking His help and support.
GOD is forgiver most Merciful.
GOD bless you.
Peace.