Salam everybody,
(English is not my mother tongue so I can make mistakes, even I studied it several years ago but never been to an English speaking country).
I'm happy to be able to post. I tried to register 5 months ago but never received the activation code,I even tried with several e mail adress. So i decided to follow some topics waiting one day if i can connect here. I never retried from 4 months ago, until today and i'm here
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It worked without having received and used an activation, I wonder why. Maybe there are some technical problems in this website (and some articles can't be found).
I hope to be able to reconnect other days in order to communicate with you inch Allah.
I consider myself as a muslim because I accepted to submit to Allah, I think that I have a lot to learn. I experienced different states of belief or disbelief.
I grow up in a family which follow what they have been taught i.e transmission by family and scholars : a mix with culture (marroco) and "traditional islam". They trusted/trust because enable to read.
I followed what has been taught to me without asking questions, following some hadiths, traditions and quran based "instructions" a kind of mix but never made research. But one day, someone showed some violent verses from al quran (translations), and i discovered some violent hadiths and the behaviour of some muslims ( violence, terrorism, punishments, lack of patience, hostility...). I was lost and stayed some years fearing Islam.
And I tried to come back to islam but still been more or less disturbed. The day I discovered that some translations are false (admitted either but some "sunni" muslims and the muslims who base their belief on Al quran alone), that adiths form the books of muslim and bukhari (I wonder if those are their true names) are questionable I was hopeful.
Now, I try to anderstand Allah's messages, trying to following them. I'm trying to know the truth but it isn't easy, there are diiferent religious movements in Islam, how sad...
I just fear to wrong myself, hope that the god will guide me if he wants. I can't understand classic arabic just some words, i can read them with harakates ( recently learned).
Some observations, notes, points here seem very relevant to me. Thank you for having shared your research, reflections and opinions
There are useful.
