Peace jkhan.
I hope your journey is not being redirected by doubts and confusion.
Many brothers and sisters struggle with "Islam to GOD" and confuse it with Tyranny , supremacy and cruelty of an arrogant creator.
All these questions have been asked by some brothers and sisters before they kicked the idea of GOD into touch, questions like:
1-why would god require obedience and Ibada from us tiny little humans and create hell to punish us?
2-Why does God need us to do anything for Him?
3-Is it true that God only set up hell to punish us because we are intelligent / debate/choose/think...etc?
...etc.
My thoughts:
Who are we? This needs to be pondered first.
Hell was never meant for humans/ Jinns to go to, but due to our and Jinns rebellious ways in our lives(past and present) , if we stay this way we have to be confined to it, Why?
Hell is not just the opposite of Heaven it is a place that will be cast into outer darkness (Allegory), where the spirit of ungodly creatures are cast, their spirits do not enjoy the presence of GOD and goodness,
These rebellious creatures will have to be chained away from God's goodness, love and fellowship which they will never experience because they have chosen it. They knew it and had chances to correct.
Of course they will desire and want to be elsewhere, but they have put their souls with the fire of that torment, where darkness is total and complete( Again allegory), away from GOD..
For me the question that I need to ask is What is eternity? What are the choices available for it? What do I need to do to make the right choice?
GOD bless you.
Peace.