salamu aleikum all together
i'm so happy to found you as my new brothers and sisters. i'm coming originally from Switzerland and was a normal chr'istian girl with many psychotic problems until i wanted to kill myself. i was not really a believer but in this time, i prayed to Allah to help me to found the right way and the nour.-and how Allah is, he send to me the next day my husband who speak with me...
i became Muslima soon later and- i was very happy in the beginning. but a little time later we coming to meet a group dawa and tabligh, they claim to follow the sunna and preach to the people to makes them muslims... so and here began
the hell, al hamdulillah, because without this hell i wouldn't be able to see the truth anymore... (theres people they need a box to wake up) but i will you tell the story slowly slowly. our work was now to convert people for the "right" (in fact it was so false, Allah forgive me please) i was the first to believe all the (beautiful stories from Rasul Allah) because i didn't see the other side- no sunni muslim told me one word from the criticial status , and i was naiv and new i believe everything what they told me... my family and all my friends leave me when i became a muslim so in this time my only friends was from the dawa and tabligh. it was really a brain washing program but i didn't see this...so in the end we decide to emigrate in Egypt, from where my husband is coming, because we became serious problems with shaitan- you know poltergeist? it was more!!!anyway we go to egypt and wanted to begin a new life. but our life it becames always more bad-we -parents from three children- found ourselves in the deep agression, it was a reall war. and all this markes, we didn't wake up. but because i felt that anything was wrong, i prayed again more fasting more etc. but in fact i was only a roboter- making the rituals without any feeling-going to learn koran-tafsir memorize, tadschuid, all what i memorize i forget in the next week... then came the time, i dreamed every night, i could't sleep again, not eat.. it was like anything was in my brain and didn't live me... one time a pray and i couldn't stand up...two days i just walk like a dog or cat up four legs.i cried for many night and days and ask Allah to help me one time again....then i became (after four years) a pc from Allah- from the heaven!!!and i dream that i became i big pot of honey from where i was eating...!and the light i saw in my dream. -in the next days i found rashad khalifa-the first time i hear something about the truth and i feel that is the truth!!! so i tried to speak with my husband- but he he tell me i'm a kafira and a muschrikin and i was really afraid from his anger.
he then was want set our children to the black list so now they cant go out Egypt without his permission.... this was from a year now. i tried to speak with my sunni friends, but until now i found only bad reactions. i was feel a little bit sad but know i found , that i'm not alone. i write all this because shure, there are other brothers or sisters in a same situation with husbands or wives or family just i wan't tell to all: don't be sad!! Allah is with you all and loves you and will helps you!!!salamu aleikum
sorry for my mistakes maybe anyone speaks German? n.b. the smileys they are very lovely!!!
