To me there is a difference between believing in God and having God. Believing in God is one thing, I believe in kangaroos although I have never seen one or been affected by one. Having God in your life is different, it starts with accepting God as an integral part of your life and seeing the effects God is having, opening your eyes to some of the changes God is bringing about, understanding, or attempting to understand what God is trying to tell you.
salam rev.john,
i share the same understanding, and experience too - there is a difference between believing in God and having God. [in fact this was the underlying factor that made me post the original question.]
and you said, "it starts with
accepting God as an integral part of your life..." [i took the liberty of highlighting the word accepting as an emphasis.]
for me, to accept is to acknowledge, or to recognize. the arabic equivalent is 'rukuAA'. more info on accepting here;
http://thesaurus.reference.com/browse/acceptingwhen i was young, i believed in God, and it stopped at just that - believing. God was quite distant, as nothing much could be related to God, other than the ideas usually taught in the sunni ways.
but it took a turn when i was past my teens, as i thought God should be such & such .... (too many to put in writing. some were blatantly ridiculous, while others were fundamentals. but suffice to say i have had many thoughts about God.) an example: since God created me, i must depend on Him for everything. God is my reference. when i need to know, i ask God. when i need guidance, i seek God's guidance. when i have problems (financial, spiritual, inter-personal, etc.), i ask for His assistance & support. with God, i have a recourse. not just help, but recourse - when i did a wrong, i ask for a pardon or stay of punishment (aAAfoo), forgiveness (ighfir) and a resumption of God's rahmah (tub).
and you wrote, "... and seeing the effects God is having, opening your eyes to some of the changes God is bringing about, understanding, or attempting to understand what God is trying to tell you."
perhaps i am allowed to say that God is a personal experience indeed. at times i laughed, while at others i even cried at the humorous way God related the comprehensions. God is indeed kind, compassionate, merciful, wise, listening, and talking. so, nothing compares with having God. i am waiting for the moment when i shall see/understand things as how God would want me to see/understand, or listen/obey as how God would want me to listen/obey.
do you, or anyone else share this or other kinds of experiences with having God?
peace
mohammed noh