Peace all
I joined this site a long time ago but didn't get too active on it as i was busy with some other stuff mainly studying. I though i'd start by telling my story.
I was born in the uk and am currently living in the UK. most of my childhood as i remeber was spent in Iran. I love Iran and i Prefer Iran over the UK. Every summer we go to iran and that is usualy if not always the best part of the year for me.
My path started (i think) when i was 13 years old. as a child i believed in God as my mothers and fathers side of the family were Shitte Muslims. i never was religious as a kid and when i was about 13 years old i stoped believing in God and decided to follow the big bang alone. To be honest i never cared much at that time and i never thought about God or Creation. Just accepted what suited me best. However being a good person and being Rightous was always very mportant to me. So i set my self limits and tried to help others in school. But i was famous for being a liar and at the time i always wanted to mix with the most popular kids in school which led me to sacrificing some of my principles and me telling them that i'm not iranian :p . However once i was going towards the end of my age (13) i realised that my life is bad and that i am always getting bullied in school and that at home it was the same routines. TV Then Playstation. Then Exersise, Then bed. I started to become Rightous and started setting myself principles (very important to me) and if I remeber correctly one of them was to be truthful. My life was getting better as i became more rightous and this was something i started to question as to wether The famous saying of "What goes around Comes Around realy is true or not.
The main problem which i had trouble stoping was lust. In school often i was looking at woman in a wrong way and at home my lust got worse Due to my bad use of the internet. and at this time (age 13) i was always bullied in school about my appearance and was told by the girls at the school that i was ugly. I was going through a hard time at this age.
When i turned 14 i then finaly set my self the principle of not looking at woman in a bad way on streets and in school but still had the problem with misusing the internet and was trying hard to get rid of it. This point was an inportant point in my path. For my belief in What Goes Around Comes Around was now if not 100% then 99% true because over the holidays My apperance had changed and i was, Thanks to God's power, mercy and kindness, becoming more handsom but at a fast rate. At this point if i remember correctly i reconsiderd the existance of life and believed in God. However i did not believe in the Hereafter and i was part of no faith I just believed that if your good, God will Give you a happier, Better and more meaningful life. I started the next year in school, and suddenly from the ugly lying pervert(which sort of was my reputation is school) i became what my friends called me fair and trufthul (it took some time for them to exept i was truthful)
Once i started to Cut down on misusing the internet for Lustful purposes i started to pursue Faith. I first looked up christianity, For my views on Islam(the corrupt one) was that it is nothing to do with God because it was to violant and too male dominating. I never seriouly became a proper Christian because The saying of christ being the son of God never made sense to me. But at these days i was having some incredibly Beautiful days in my life which i thanked god for. At school, i was suddenly very popular and at home i was witnessing some beautiful scenes in our Garden. So i thanked God for these moments.
I continued my path with a semi Christianity faith and a view of there being no Hereafter untill i was 15. And then Ramadan came and the Asians(Pakistanis) in our school were fasting and for some reason i chose to fast. I fasted if i remember correctly, at least half of that month.
I then chose to look up islam and then That's were my faith in the hereafter was begining to take place. I then followed and started upholding the salat, However i mentioned Muhammad's name as most if not all sunni's and shitte's do. I began to question some of the things to do with Islam. Eg: my friend in school (sunni faith) told me that i should not eat with my my left hand because that is what satan did. I rejected this. i was at a point where i wanted to grow stronger in faith. So i asked for a sign and indeed without doubt i was kindly granted one i which solidified my faith.
After this i can't remeber properly but i came across
submission.org and suddenly their article on bin the hadith and sunnah made plenty of sense to me. Luckily i had no knowledge that Sunnah and hadith existed because no one ever told me. So it was no problem for me to reject hadith and sunnah because, i assumed that's where the violance and male domination and other things which were strange and meaningless coming from. I then downloaded an english version of the Quran from
19.org (i think it's the translation done by freeminds) and read it. Although i did not understand all of it it made one thing clear to me. That those meaningless traditions such as the example i gave about my friend telling me never even existed. Howvever i was still unsure about certain things in the Quran which i thought was put great emphasis on like salat. Because i upheld the prayer the way shitte muslims did it never made much sense to me as to why this is an important. However God bieng the best of those who guide, I asked him for guidance, as to where i am going wrong with the salat and asked him to Guide me towards a way which will have more meaning. And thanks to God again i was led roughly about a month ago from today to uphold the salat the way in which i do. Now I look forward to salat, Now i feel great after salat, Now i commit less mistakes and have better controll during the day, Now i know the importance of it.
I am very greatful for the progress i haver made withing these 2 to 3 years. I realised how seeking God's help is incredilby effective.
I thank God and all those who are striving towards spreading the message snd live an upright life.
peace,
Nyma
