Salaam Arian,
Peace be upon you, I am Christian and in no way I will disrespect people's religion. I would say good luck with the journey to discovery as the others are sharing.
I do not mean to confuse you, you need to follow what is in your heart , I know that in Islam belief and teaching, women and men have observations and if you respect you religion you should purposefully do it. BUT...

In Christianity we believe in freedom not fear and everyone will always be willing to answer whatever question. our parent used to say "don't play with the name of God..." never took our phones or toys most specially when you are of age. So a woman has as much rights as a man in whatever issue but it is for a woman to understand that a man is the head of the house

Fear :elektro:to ask some deep concerns means you are under bondage, no matter how much you give in, you will never be free. life is a gift and you owe the fruits to God, should you not then find out from Him what to do or not? He and He alone will require the fruits at the end,
The true God reveals to you what you should do, sometimes we question our elders but already we are not ready to accept, in fact we hope to enlighten them, maybe God has already spoken to you heart.

As Christians, we believe Jesus died for us and we should not be afraid or bound of/by anything that can kill the flesh and cannot touch the soul. We believe Jesus died to redeem our souls to God and in resurrection we shall receive new flesh just as a corn dying and receives another body as a tree.

In Christianity people who questions the faith likes to say, the Bible was written by western people or the Bible is a fabrications, but I tell you in the name of Jesus I have removed deseases in people and I have seen miracles which are the demostrations,

well, I was just sharing in case you might also want to learn little bit of Christianity, please do ask questions and I will answer and you can investigate and make conclusion,

God bless,