My commander teaches me discipline. To strive for his cause regardless of the hardship. I am aware, that the more difficult
my test is for me, the more reward should await. But this post is not about that. It is about the practical side effects of
following Qur'an alone. I am sure I am not the only one.
Being part of a Muslim community that is 100% hadith based, patience is the most difficult subject in my test. All the
charity, all the good behaviors, all the truthfulness, all the knowledge, all the humor, all the tolerance, all the
prayers, all the reminder about Allah, everything is in vain from my community's perspective either for my long hairs, or
because I play guitar and enjoy music. (Let alone my Qur'an alone approach )
It is sad to see that the people that I grew up with, that are the best of all friends, they believe that even after
obeying all commandments of the book, I will be a fuel for the fire in Hell for playing my guitar. I know that they are not
the judge, so their belief does not matter. But, being born of a women, I share emotions passed on through genes that make
the human heart ache a little now and then.
These are the same people that are mad at the Christians for following the word of St. Paul instead of the words of Jesus.
Yet, they go totally blind/dumb/deaf when you ask them to judge their own actions and question why I must follow
Bukhari/Muslim's collections instead of what Muhammad left for me ? They question the authority of Paul at the same time
that they submit to Bukhari/Muslim's judgements and opinions.
Following the Qur'an word for word does not satisfy them unless you submit to their hadith collector's authority. It makes
me emotional at times, a feeling of living in the dark ages, with so much ignorance in the air, my heart becomes numb and I
feel like shooting each and every one of them in the face. The moment I think like that, Allah calls me back towards
patience and peace. Hence I suppress my anger and choose to pick up the pen and fight.
I felt like sharing my thoughts with people that will be able to grasp what it is like to live in the 21st century with
people that have the mentality of cave man. I seek refuge in the Lord of dawn from the evil of the "cave men" that he created. Allah please remove the last bit of hypocrisy that is left in me.
I welcome anyone to come forth commenting or sharing similar feelings if they like to.
All praise due to Allah
------------------------------------- Student of Allah