Emotional Distress: me vs the enemies of reason

[Student of Allah]

Salam,

My commander teaches me discipline. To strive for his cause regardless of the hardship. I am aware, that the more difficult
my test is for me, the more reward should await. But this post is not about that. It is about the practical side effects of
following Qur'an alone. I am sure I am not the only one.

Being part of a Muslim community that is 100% hadith based, patience is the most difficult subject in my test. All the
charity, all the good behaviors, all the truthfulness, all the knowledge, all the humor, all the tolerance, all the
prayers, all the reminder about Allah, everything is in vain from my community's perspective either for my long hairs, or
because I play guitar and enjoy music. (Let alone my Qur'an alone approach )

It is sad to see that the people that I grew up with, that are the best of all friends, they believe that even after
obeying all commandments of the book, I will be a fuel for the fire in Hell for playing my guitar. I know that they are not
the judge, so their belief does not matter. But, being born of a women, I share emotions passed on through genes that make
the human heart ache a little now and then.

These are the same people that are mad at the Christians for following the word of St. Paul instead of the words of Jesus.
Yet, they go totally blind/dumb/deaf when you ask them to judge their own actions and question why I must follow
Bukhari/Muslim's collections instead of what Muhammad left for me ? They question the authority of Paul at the same time
that they submit to Bukhari/Muslim's judgements and opinions.

Following the Qur'an word for word does not satisfy them unless you submit to their hadith collector's authority. It makes
me emotional at times, a feeling of living in the dark ages, with so much ignorance in the air, my heart becomes numb and I
feel like shooting each and every one of them in the face. The moment I think like that, Allah calls me back towards
patience and peace. Hence I suppress my anger and choose to pick up the pen and fight.

I felt like sharing my thoughts with people that will be able to grasp what it is like to live in the 21st century with
people that have the mentality of cave man. I seek refuge in the Lord of dawn from the evil of the "cave men" that he created. Allah please remove the last bit of hypocrisy that is left in me.

I welcome anyone to come forth commenting or sharing similar feelings if they like to.

All praise due to Allah

------------------------------------- Student of Allah

[Eikonoklastes]

Peace, Student of Allah !

I thank Allah that we have a community like this one at free-minds.org, with people like you who feel comfortable sharing your deepest emotions with us. 

No need to justify your feelings, or to even attribute it to being a female, as even I (a male) often feel the same way. For us Muslims who uphold the Quran alone, it is indeed quite a dark time for our religion.

But at the same time, I find it somewhat beautiful that we are amongst the few who have huddled close to the small ray of light that remains, and are striving to help it turn back into the glorious star it once was. I often marvel at the idea of our beloved prophet Muhammad carrying out such a mission as the one he did. It must have felt like the heaviest of boulders on his back trying to convince idol-worshipers, and the ones who have distorted the original message of truth, all while being chased out of his own village and having to defend himself physically. Look at all that he has done with the guidance from Allah!

I feel like for that reason, we must carry on and have hope that the truth will always prevail. So as long as we strive to be close to Allah, I have faith that we will succeed.

I do also believe that the party of righteous is a very small one, and will always be so. The most we can do is spread the truth, and hope that Allah will guide whomsoever He pleases to it.

With this new age of Internet, and constant global discussion, and ability to gather so much information that proves how the hadith is corrupt, I think we'll see some big changes in the near future. Even the Middle East is beginning to change for the better as of late. Let us be patient. 

May peace be with you.

[tightdhoti]

Student,

I know what you are going through and felt the same emotions (well...except for shooting in the face part, I much prefer a fist   ). However, I used the abundance of good work people have done on FM and other sites/ books to peacefully present my side, and Alhamdullilah, so far I have had much success 

Peace 

[Student of Allah]

Student,

I know what you are going through and felt the same emotions (well...except for shooting in the face part, I much prefer a fist   ). However, I used the abundance of good work people have done on FM and other sites/ books to peacefully present my side, and Alhamdullilah, so far I have had much success 

Peace 

Salam,

Thanks for the comment comments both of you. Well, luckily not everyone that I spread the message to is ignorant. A cousin and another friend now gets the point , glory to Allah. But the overwhelming majority, they drive me mad. Its always like, me producing evidence after evidence from the Qur'an and reasoning. They telling me that I must be wrong even when my arguments are irrefutable because I am not a scholar  I keep on asking them why I am wrong when Qur'an agrees with me and the scholars disagree, they have no answer but "you are not scholar, you do not have credibility". What makes me more angry is that whenever they want to know anything scientific,historic,religious, they come bugging me to find them sources/books/websites etc.

I guess the only reason they reject me is not due to my knowledge on the subject matter, but purely because of this example from the Qur'an :

They said: We found our fathers worshipping them. [ Qur'an 21:53 ]

The only argument they have against all my claims is that I am not following the desires of their scholars/clerics/community .

May Allah increase us in knowledge

-------------- Student of Allah

[raginggaijin]

They telling me that I must be wrong even when my arguments are irrefutable because I am not a scholar  I keep on asking them why I am wrong when Qur'an agrees with me and the scholars disagree, they have no answer but "you are not scholar, you do not have credibility".

Peace be with you,

Point them to the Quran and show them Allah gives you authority.

"It belongs not to any mortal that God should give him the Book, the Judgment, the Prophethood, then he should say to men, 'Be you servants to me apart from God.' Rather, 'Be you scholars (rabbaniyyeena) in that you know the Book, and in that you study.'" Surah 3:79

Then ask them who has greater authority: Their scholars or Allah?

Peace.

[Student of Allah]

Peace be with you,

Point them to the Quran and show them Allah gives you authority.

"It belongs not to any mortal that God should give him the Book, the Judgment, the Prophethood, then he should say to men, 'Be you servants to me apart from God.' Rather, 'Be you scholars (rabbaniyyeena) in that you know the Book, and in that you study.'" Surah 3:79

Then ask them who has greater authority: Their scholars or Allah?

Peace.

Salam,

Thanks, I will surely try to discuss that. The rest is upon Allah. Its so difficult to reason with hijacked brains.

------------- Student of Allah

[justamuslim]

you are applying logic and reasoning when well faith is not based on that. 

[Student of Allah]

you are applying logic and reasoning when well faith is not based on that. 

Salam,

My understanding of faith is vastly different from BLIND BELIEF. The reason I feel comfortable lending money to my friends, and they are comfortable lending money to me is not based on BLIND BELIEF, even though non of us can see the future. Faith is the by product of the personal relationship that we shared over time, which strengthens the idea that the money will be returned. Whereas Blind Belief is like going and lending people on the street money and awaiting return of that money. Allah gives you plenty of things to wonder about and then demands faith. Whereas these people ask you to follow them just because this is what they have been taught to do. No place for reason or rational thought, just follow the herd and do not question !!

Peace be on you

--------------- Student of Allah